Showing posts with label energetic priniples. Show all posts
Showing posts with label energetic priniples. Show all posts

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Or so I tell myself... My attempts to counteract Math Anxiety

Thats Mathematics (Rare) - Tom Lehrer

Here are some musings of my relationship with my math homework….
(which I correlated with Sandra Anne Taylor's excerpts about creating more substantial relationships).... It's a little out in left field but it makes perfect sense to me.




I promise there's a method to the madness....


If you put out a certain type of energy you will receive results that are often a reflection of that particular energy. In a relationship as Sandra Anne Taylor says “if you put out a nervous energy than you will attract a fearful mate in return or if you are critical of yourself than you will attract a mate who is critical of you as well. As well as if you put out passive energy, you will either attract a mate with that same passive energy or you will attract someone who will try to dominate you to exert their energy through you”.


The same attitude can be applied to our relationship with our studies. If we are nervous about our assignments, that scattered energy is going to reflect in partial retention. We’ll only remember bits and pieces of the information. If we are critical of your assignments, you’re limiting yourself in that you are not maximizing the full potential of yourself to immerse yourself in the material and receive a variety of favorable results from them and your output in you assignments becomes questionable as well. If you are passive about doing your assignments, either you will be equally as ineffective about learning the material or you will let that anxiety dominate you by playing those fears out through you which will probably adversely affect the way you approach the problems as well as your potential results.


Don’t be a victim when you make a mistake, because it inhibits your ability to learn from them. That means don't be so hard on yourself or blame the professor for why you don't understand the material. Learning math is about learning how we make mistakes as well as learning how we approach these inconveniences and how we go about trying to correct them. Math is about teaching us more effective ways to think and strategizing to correct our thinking when there is something in it that is causing us to make errors. Hmmmm…. My thinking needs to be improved…. Maybe I will do some math problems …. I just need to read this repeatedly whenever I find myself averting my focus from it and remember that it’s more than a job or an assigned task. It could be the very thing that could possibly bridge the gap between here and a MUCH better life. I may like the one I have now, but it could totally exceed my expectations if I take the material a bit more seriously, and respect and enjoy the process instead of being reluctant to participate. Think of it as another form of service learning, only this time it is a service that you are doing is for yourself. Sweet….




Behold... a good relationship with one's self, and what they learn or choose can become the key to enlightenment

Sunday, September 14, 2008

I've FINALLY found THE ONE....

Finally - Fergie
I just had THE MOST transcendent experience (ever...). I was behind schedule the other day [when I originally scribbled this in my steno pad] and running around on like 4 hourse of sleep, trying to make sure that I was keeping up on my assignments, even though it seemed that it was my professors who were unprepared and late that day. By the time 5 o clock rolled around, I was just ready to unload some of those bricks they call books from my tote bag when my computer stalled rebooting. It was wierd, it gave me sort of a red flag that something that I'd done or was doing was causing me to be misaligned or something, like my vibration was off. I was probably missing something or forgetting to do something relatively important. So naturally, I opened my email to scan the names and make sure I hadn't missed a committment.


There were a few emails from friends and student groups. There was one that caught my eye because it was for one of the student groups that I eventually want to be a part of, but I'm kind of stretched thin with classes I knew that I wouldn't be able to participate this semester. Also the name on it caught my eye because I'd initially assumed that the email was from someone in my study group but the last name didn't match. When I realized that it wasn't from who'd I'd initially thought, and after I looked at the clock what was supposed to be happening finally caught up with me.

"OH" I cried out loud. "I [forgot] I was supposed to go to that Buddhist thing!" (and the weird thing was is that I'd checked it off in my calendar as the next place that I should go)... but nevertheless I was still late.

Somehow I convinced myself that if I hurried that I could just quietly slip into the back of the room and catch the lecture. I had only been in the building once, and I'm pretty adept at finding my way around. So when I discovered that what I assumed would be a gallery or small auditorium was actually a classroom hidden behind frosted block glass and that the door was positioned at the front of it, I grew a little alarmed.

My first instinct was to try the doorknow. It turned downward, but after giving it a meager push, I realized that if I forced it open I'd risk REALLY disrupting the class. So I started to feel a little disappointed. I did, however, notice a cracked door with someone working quietly behind it. "Yes," I thought. He could give me the proper protocol for these types of situations~ [Wow, it didn't occur to me until that moment that I am almost NEVER late for things... to the point where I didn't know what to do in that situation... that's not bad]

... I went to the door and melodically chimed, "knock, knock" That's when I noticed that the name on the door. "THATwas so and so from the email!!!!" I had assumed that since it was for a student group that it had been sent out by a student. In fact I think the email was for the first meeting of the African Student Union. I'd wanted to participate but I had a scheduling conflict. But what started out like a bizarre coincidence ended up being a major blessing though... and the rest is history....

I have found my 1st mentor!!!!
[here... or at least the most relevant to my experience. Yay!]... and believe me, I've been phishing. We started the discussion with my intention to attend the event, and the first thing he did was look at his watch and his face cringed and he says to me, "I thought it started at 5 o clock..." If you'd seen the reaction, you would have wanted to laugh, because it was totally an expression that I would have made [with the face and the sidebar instead of just saying, yeah, that's not going to happen].

I was like, "I KNOW..." and explained what happened and he assured me that he could certainly relate to being spread too thin. He was still trying to unpack his office.... So I looked around at the boxes to sort of see what his tastes were. His library was quite impressive and the general assumption that I made was that he must have taught anthropology or something due to the artifacts on his shelves.

To confirm this belief, my eyes fell upon a picture of some Egyptian ruins that he had posted on the wall over his desk. We referenced it and asked him who it was, and we talked about Egyptian Gods... at some point I specifically referenced my past fascination with Ahknatan and the metaphysical aspects of his contributions to monotheism. That led to a discussion about my own experience with trying to write a book about Quantum mechanics and the similarities in metaphysical principals and how I'd independent derived many universal truths at an alarming rate... I mentioned how I'd started going to temple for lack of better mentorship to make sense of the quantum mystical experience that I had begun to experience and that led to a brief reference to my hospitalization and the psychiatrists attitudes regarding my need "to find a more mainstream religion" and then he explained what happened to me was fundamentally an issue of not my pursuing the metaphysical aspects of it but rather my "taking on too much too soon"... that I had probably tapped into something that I hadn't been prepared for and how it would be beneficial to continue with proper guidance and by pacing myself.

He also explained that perhaps, rather than abandon it I approach it much more slowly and methodically and he invited me to come back by his office again. [it was funny because we'd gone from him needing to on his way out in 10 minutes, to being intrigued enough with my story to ask me to sit and have the in depth conversation... which I'd never really had with a grown up before]. That was cool. His basis for understanding and teaching was based upon a lot of muslim denominations that I was unfamiliar with, but he did mention the Sufis... which is what Joel was [my ex... whom I dated during the time I was going through all of that and had a relative understanding of what I was going through]. Evidently, we weren't the only ones out there that had "put ourselves through the ringer" so to speak as they search for universal truths and seek knowledge. But we both, (the professor and I) agreed that most people did not want to do the work because and I felt as if they were too intimidated by the paradigm shift of what letting go of some of their past beliefs would mean, and he attributed to the allusion that many "can't get past the idea of a physical manifestation of God...

I FEEL SOOOOOOOO REAFFIRMED to finally have found someone who gets it, and can explain so eloquently what happened and should be happening with me. PLUS, they have the knowledge and tools to give a little bit of direction into what I might be able to do with it. And more than likely, if they've had that conversation with me, there are others out there that they might know who sit around and discuss these types of things all the time, including their own experiences. Ironically, I know that I'm going to have to find a new advisor... I've been forewarned and those warnings have been more or less accurate. Perhaps I could seriously consider asking him to be my academic advisor. Although, it may be beneficial to have someone in the field of study like applied math and science. But if I want to coordinate my academic experience with what I'd want to do, and write essays and such about Ghandi's waste management plan and how his urban environmental efforts relate to social justice and community development in impoverished areas, there could be some significant work that could be done, and if nothing else it would give me an excellent research project to work on before I graduate. Hmmmmm!!!!!

I thought that I wanted to collaborate on a project with one of my phys ed buddies on alternative energy, service learning and prison reform.... and who knows, perhaps we could still work on that over short period. But I think that would be an excellent avenue, the research project, to do some of my most significan work. I may need to seriously consider that... Hit me back and let me know what you think... But I'm pretty sure that I'm going to pursue it. My moral compass is like completely in alignment with that choice....



Friday, June 27, 2008

Shifting the Paradigm: Does Conscious Intent Exist?




@ What Point do we draw the line between actually believing we can do something and limiting ourselves to believe that reality doesn't make allowances for us to realistically achieve our aspirations. I mean damn, I went from hearing "you can be or do anything you set your mind toward to being berated and told, "you're so naive", "your ideas are too grandiose", "you need to be more realistic or balanced". Ain't that some sh*t? I don't quite understand it myself. But then again, usually the first people to criticize are the ones who aren't quite doing well themselves. Why is it that only athletes and pyramid scheme orators [oops, I mean motivational speakers,] take the time to encourage people past the point of young adulthood. I feel like the second I graduated from high school people stopped telling me that the future was mine and started telling me that I was gonna have to work like a slave to just to break even. And that kind of threw me for a loop for a while because at some point I began to believe that nonsense and suddenly these "false prophets" had convinced me that their view of what my existence was going to manifest was simply going to fulfill itself. I'd end up tired, miserable, and working 80 hour weeks to get by unless I wanted to end up broke, slinging groceries, and yearning for so much more. I'm not knocking it, it can be a totally respectable profession depending upon how you carry yourself. But try to tell your slack-ass co-workers that [although admittedly it doesn't apply to everyone, only most].





I mean let's think about it. What about when people grow up institutionalized or conditioned toward believing they have limited opportunities. Or what if they believe that they don't have the capacity to transcend their circumstances; be it their environment, intellect or perceived juxtaposition in life. Does the labeling of archetypes, race and class identifications and disparity among health care, distribution of wealth and educational opportunities contribute to the nihilistic belief that particular individuals just don't have what it takes to be successful? Or, are these just a self imposed constraints resulting from narrowminded thinking and a limited consciousness or state of being?



There are some who believe that what we can and cannot manifest into reality originates from our thoughts and are determined by our own state of mind. In order to translate our ideas from mental images into reality, we first must possess the belief and the creativity and effort to bring these ideas about... or to become "actualized". Unfortunately, many people consciously create ideas, solutions or responses to things but do to the lack of effort or misdirection of their intentions to pursue them effectively or wholeheartedly, these ideas never get the chance to manifest themselves into reality. Consequently, a lot of times we fail to realize just how we may unconsciously bring about challenges into our lives as well for no other reason but our inability to see outside of the box or because we possess the wrong attitude.



The question that many have been asking more recently after taking some time to explore this phenomenon is this:



Is the act of manifestation or conscious creation the result of a deliberate conscious intent, or simply the predetermined causal response of the limitation of each individual or particular archetypal physical or mental limitations. Alternatively, in the event that one's ability to be successful or limited is determined by conditioning, can this behavior be UN-learned or reconditioned to produce a different outcome? Or, is there something bigger or greater, outside of ourselves that ultimately has control over the outcome? According to social learning behavior theory...


Social learning theory, later renamed social cognitive theory, proposes that behavior change is affected by environmental influences, personal factors, and attributes of the behavior itself. Each may affect or be affected by either of the other two. A central tenet of social cognitive theory is the concept of self-efficacy. A person must believe in his or her capability to perform the behavior (i.e., the person must possess self-efficacy) and must perceive an incentive to do so (i.e., the person's positive expectations from performing the behavior must outweigh the negative expectations). Additionally,a person must value the outcomes or consequences that he or she believes will occur as a result of performing a specific behavior or action. Outcomes may be classified as having immediate benefits (e.g., feeling energized following physical
activity) or long-term benefits (e.g., experiencing improvements in
cardiovascular health as a result of physical activity). But because these
expected out-comes are filtered through a person's expectations or perceptions of being able to perform the behavior in the first place, self-efficacy is believed to be the single most important characteristic that determines a person's behavior change. Self-efficacy can be increased in several ways, among them by providing clear instructions, providing the opportunity for skill development or training, and modeling the desired behavior. To be effective, models must evoke trust, admiration, and respect from the observer; models must not, however, appear to represent a level of behavior that the observer is unable to visualize attaining.

( found @ http://www.csupomona.edu/~jvgrizzell/best_practices/bctheory.html#Social%20Learning%20Theory )

It has been noted that during neurological conditioning and response that:

classical conditioning - conditioning that pairs a neutral stimulus with a stimulus that evokes a reflex; the stimulus that evokes the reflex is given whether or not the conditioned response occurs until eventually the neutral stimulus comes to evoke the reflex

Or rather that during the process of neurotransmission, that as receptors become accustomed to receiving signals triggered by a stimulus that in effect they become conditioned to elicit a particular response once this pattern is continuously reinforced [as in addictive behavior or when children develop certain behavior patterns through learning and discipline].

neurotransmission
passage of signals from one nerve cell to another via chemical substances or electrical signals.

more can be found @ http://faculty.washington.edu/chudler/synapse.html

http://www.biologymad.com/NervousSystem/synapses.htmhttp://science.education.nih.gov/supplements/nih2/addiction/activities/lesson2_neurotransmission.htm


The media uses advertising to appeal to this response by generating hype or excitement around a particular product. They sometimes also can simulate a need or create the idea for a perceived need and lack that we feel compelled to respond to fill this need; ie as in for love, fortune, fame, beauty, acceptance and success...essentially anything that will boost our "street cred"). This does not just happen in the media. Biologically and even at the quantum algorithmic level we are programmed with every fiber of our being to look for opportunities to fulfill particular needs in order to feel rewarded or at homeostasis with our surrounding environments and with the identification and ego development of our emerging self. The more our environments change, or we are exposed to variances of situations, the more these needs adapt anc change in order to create the response or environment that resonates or attracts and entrains the result we want. Otherwise we end up feeling unbalanced, unstable, and not at ease until we can find something or create an alternative to pacify the need for the time being [what Amit Gotswami refers to as situational creativity].


Even a molecule, in its most fundamental state, must form bonds arranged according to what will justify its need in order to achieve stability, otherwise it is stuck in a state of transition and flux and constantly must seek out the resources it needs and are scarce and may limit it from being able to effectively produce anything until that sybiotic homeostasis is achieved.


Only in a highly energetic or transitional realm with an abundance of resources, viable alternative resources, and space to transform and grow can one element make that quantum and transcendental leap toward new promise and opportunity. But in most cases, we are creatures of habit and genetic disposition because we are molecularly made up that way. The only way that we are used to making growth is through a drawn out series of cross correlative and algorithmic systems that are gradually integrated through the process of growth repair and change that takes place over time.


But does this mean that we are bound to these predispositions due to our makeup or can our established behavioral patterns, within the right conditions and pushed beyond the established parameters be effectively unlearned.


In physics, the term retentivity refers to: the power of retaining; specifically : the capacity for retaining magnetism after the action of the magnetizing force has ceased. It refers to the process of pattern recognition and reinforcement in magnetic attraction that enables a connection to stay bonded after it has intially been made.


Because any type of conditioning is a series of patterns that must be reinforced, the series must be drastically halted and reprogrammed/ reconditioned in order to produce new results. In some cases, in which the pattern of replication or general makeup are so ingrained that to undeo it would appear to lead to the destruction of the foundational structure or the organism itself; be it molecular , organic or a state of mind, it must be augmented instead by simply reinforcing the strong, healthier parts and training/ disciplining the more adverse mal-adaptive components to lie dormant or become vestigial. This does not mean that those traits aren't still fundamentally a part of the makeup. It just means that the parts that are more accessible and utilized become more prevalent during this exchange of growth.


This exercise does not just apply to the growth and development of molecular structures but also translates to the creation of ego development as well. Unfortunately, the reverse is also true when negative attriutes and behaviors are reinforced in this manner. Like when people hide the warmer, softer side of themselves, or their intelligence in order to fit in, or convince themselves that these are weaker charcteristics and should be disregarded in order to gain acceptance among less reputable peers. What people don't realize is that there is a considerable amount of latent energy that is burned off in the process toward achieving those ends that often isn't taken into account. When this energy is in alignment with the pre-existing need or is conducive to the surrounding environment, it moves as if it is guided or conditioned to follow a certain behavior and once reinforced becomes consistent with what is "learned". When met by resistance, however, or becomes out of alignment with serving its initial purpose, the energy becomes scattered or redistibuted to alternatively gratify the preexisting need or supplement the need in different areas. This accounts for the seemingly erratic diffraction of energy and pattern recognition and why it appears to at times impulsively jump from place to place.


Often the distractions of the environment create a situation where the energy exerted can't adequately find what it seeks, so it must either continue to exert energy and find the resources that it needs to replenish itself; squander that energy thereby releasing and diffracting it into other areas, or take what it can from the surrounding environment and external stimuli and merely try to sustain itself through maintenance and repair until the resources become available.


This series of processes applies to biological, cognitive, and mechanical functions as well. One could even go so far as to express these principles in other contexts as well. Think about the principles of economics and how the laws of supply demand work in terms of redistribution, surplus, and scarcity. Individuals and organizations must be able to sustain themselves before they can allocate resources to effectively serve a larger function [as is applicable with any mechanical function]. The intial intent is to ensure that the needs are met to enable the structure/ system to function properly. If those needs can't be met, the structure must make the neccessary modifications to grow, mend it's internal operation, or expand in order to maintain its existence.


Even in algebraic expressions, balance must be achieved to produce a particular result. In the result of inequity, a process of redistribution must occur to regain that balance. At times, when enough information is not given, cross correlations, or a system of expressions must be used to derive the appropriate allocation of variables of an unknown integer to approximate and later precisely deduce how to reallocate the integers, or in the case of physicality, a resource.


Most poignantly, this process is often overlooked, in finding cross correlations and redistributing energy to seek out resources using the mind. Many people become so focused upon the need itself, that they fail to notice the energy they project into a situation. They are also unaware of their intentions behind the perceived need and how it can attract or repel the types of energy that are conducive toward magnetizing or yielding a desired result. They are often oblivious that their energetic patterns often create a recognition response for the type of reaction or response that they receive. The response is merely a reflection of their own actions or intentions. Other times they become so focused upon reacting to the external energy, be it positive or negative that they fail to realize how energy can be redirected or resources can be reallocated or aligned to better attract the things we want or need. They simply write this phenomenon as causality or fate, and in more traditional cases have even gone so far as to attribute what happens naturally to some sort of "divine providence" or metaphysical power.


True their is a higher power that encompasses all material things and the spaces in between. What many people tend to overlook, often due to conflicting doctrines or teachings is that this omnipresence of power is embedded deeply into each and every one of us. We just drop the ball when it comes to understanding that or how to tap into it. Rather than looking toward the heavens for some sort of divine intervention, we could be using the well spring of natural capacity to create and execute deliberate action because in the quantum mechanistic sense, associated with actual physical reality [which in the world of neo soul is often referred to as physicality], power actually comes from within ourselves; our minds and bodies and consciousness. This capacity is embedded within every cell and living follicle that has the ability to respond and choose their own direction. We are not at the mercy of some unstoppable dichotomy of good and evil forces, but rather are rooted in and affected by our own organic states of stability, transition and growth or decay, depending upon how consistent our energetic expenditure and intentions are with our intended objectives.


How does this translate into our consciousness? There is a debate among scholars as to whether or not our individual consciousness derives from a greater, more uniform "collective" and shared state of consciousness. What can be agreed upon by many, is that in addition to being able to respond to the affectations of our environments, we possess the gift of awareness of our ability to respond and "choose" not only how we direct our energy, but also the perceptions and the intentions behind it. Just by re-evaluating the things that affect us and reconsidering how we perceive these things, or our attitudes regarding them, we can cause such a paradigm shift in our consciousness that it begins to redefine our existence [or our identification or perception of it] as we know it.

What am I talking about? Your attitude biotch! Take those stank attitudes, those half-assed mentalities, and that attention starved chaos ensuing drama elsewhere where they will put up with your nonsense. Because as long as you keep putting that energy out there, that's the kind of energy you are going to get back and attract unless there happens to be a situation that is forgiving enough to make allowances for that kind of thing and can deflect or redirect that energy elsewhere... or find a way to construct it into something positive... a safer place if you will. Anything that's met with that type of negative mindset will be met with conflict and resistance and to engage in it would be to essentially create more problems or exacerbate the existing ones. Then, you will have conditioned yourself into either fulfilling the need for negativity by drawing it into and projecting it around your life and into the lives of others or you've resolved to remain unbalanced and in need of satisfying some unfulfilled need and either self destructing or depleting other resources around you or find the resources that you can to get by until you can find the necessary resouces to help you dispel this pattern and repair those areas with something more rewarding. In itself this can be the "drastic ego death" or moment of clarity that is needed for growth and humility.

Once that misinformation of energy and inten is expelled, through personal growth, education, discipline, and practice [a positive way to reinforce this new information or new patterns], one can begin to learn what is need in order to "magnetize" the things that are needed to successfully improve one's self and circumstances in one's life. But this all starts in the mind and one must work inward if they are ever going to get the most out of their experience. This begins with first believing that one can improve and second making the decision and actions that are consistent with bring those results about. This includes, but is not limited to disregarding people who try to tear down your dreams or expectations, because more often than not the people who would have the audacity to do such a thing aren't quite living the heightened state of cognizance or "spiritual awareness" themselves. Otherwise they wouldn't be telling you that you couldn't or shouldn't be doing things. Your future and your outcomes are contigent upon your intentions and your actions. So in answer to the question; does conscious intent actually exist? It appears that one cannot ever be "actualized" without it.

"To be enlightened is to lighten up"

-Mike Meyers (Guru Pitka)


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